Dog Days are Over – A Journey of Love, Loss, and Letting Go.
Somewhere over the ocean, the strangest thought hit me. The stumps on her back… what if they were her angel wings? I know it was just a dream. The mind is an incredible thing—finding patterns, making connections that may not even be real. But... the thought of it... was enough to break me again. I had held it together for as long as I could. But now… the floodgates opened. After years of illness, delays, and guilt, I was finally here—taking Janice to the place she had always wanted to be. I stood where she asked me to scatter her ashes, the wind carrying her into the landscape she loved. She was home. And now, I had to let go.
Five Years…
I was sat at home feeling rather melancholy when a Robin appeared in my garden perched on a lantern. The widowed community have their own superstitions about the presence of Robin Red Breasts. I hadn't seen one in a while, could it be coincidence that today was five years ago I arrived home to comfort my late wife after she received life changing news?
The Prettiest Star
An unusual and most thoughtful gift brought me to tears for more reasons than my friend had known, Janice you are my brightest star, love to the heavens and back xxx
Palliative Care and the Three Stages of Friendship Loss
On hearing the news, I collapsed to the floor of my hotel room, paralysed with fear & guilt that I should have been there, knowing she was alone that night. Janice was more held together than I was, I was stuttering, in tears, unable to get words out for a good 30 minutes or more, shock set in quickly, we talked for as long as we could, I tried to find an earlier flight home, but was unable to do so. It was a long night, unable to eat, unable to sleep, unable to think straight, unable to talk to anyone about what I'd just learned. The morning couldn't come quick enough, my car took me to the airport, I boarded my flight to find on my return Janice waiting at the door. She always tracked me on my phone so knew I was just pulling up, we hugged and cried for a long time that day.
Two Ingredient Choc Chip Cookies!
An unusual post for me, I was sorting out the kitchen this week and couldn't identify half the utensils and tools my wife used for baking, cooking and stuff. One item didn't look out of place in Dr Evil's lair for signalling satellite dishes...
Grief Never Forgets…
I didn’t expect to be caught of by today’s anniversary, but I have, the build up has been bad and the day has knocked me for six… I still love […]
Happy Wedding Anniversary Janice
Today would have been our 12th Wedding Anniversary together, every day just seems to get harder without you being here. There is so much I want to say, stuff I […]
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