On hearing the news, I collapsed to the floor of my hotel room, paralysed with fear & guilt that I should have been there, knowing she was alone that night. Janice was more held together than I was, I was stuttering, in tears, unable to get words out for a good 30 minutes or more, shock set in quickly, we talked for as long as we could, I tried to find an earlier flight home, but was unable to do so. It was a long night, unable to eat, unable to sleep, unable to think straight, unable to talk to anyone about what I’d just learned. The morning couldn’t come quick enough, my car took me to the airport, I boarded my flight to find on my return Janice waiting at the door. She always tracked me on my phone so knew I was just pulling up, we hugged and cried for a long time that day.
Fifteen years together as a couple is a significant milestone. Crystal is the traditional gift for a 15th wedding anniversary. It represents the clear and sparkling love between husband and wife.
Breaking in a new Diabetes Nurse this morning, it’s bad enough getting out of my pit at this unholy hour to be there before 8am (when I should be Z’ing […]
I was shocked and sad to learn late Saturday evening my friend and fellow widow passed away on Friday whilst out for a walk. My thoughts are with her Mum […]
After 13 months since losing Janice to such an awful disease I’m finally granted bereavement counselling courtesy of the NHS. Its proven very difficult to access any services for bereavement when you actually need them! Here's my story...
It's been 16 weeks or 112 days or 2,688 hours since losing my loving, gorgeous, caring, and witty wife. How have I been during that time? Total shock, denial, loss, emptiness, apathy towards life and devastation just doesn't seem enough to describe how I am feeling.