Grief Never Forgets…

I didn’t expect to be caught of by today’s anniversary, but I have, the build up has been bad and the day has knocked me for six… I still love […]

Next of Kin Conundrum…

Nurse: “Next of Kin is blank!” Me: Yes I know, I have no one. Nurse: What about Relative, Friend, Brother/Sister/Child etc. Me: I’ve explained it’s blank because I have no one. Nurse: Well have you considered putting a friend down? Me: I’m fairly intelligent and considered a lot of options, and frankly there isn’t anyone, besides should I join the choir invisible I wouldn’t be too concerned?

Adventures in NHS Counselling… Day 2

I arrive for my appointment a little stressed since roadworks closed the only access to the building and I had to find alternate parking… I hobble the distance on my […]

Confessions of a Physiotherapy Session

Then… I’m taken completely by surprise as she pushes me up against the wall, drops to her knees, puts one hand around my bad leg and then starts tugging… gently at first and then longer, harder, deeper with each stroke…  At this point the only thing going through my mind is .... “I hope she doesn’t let go!” What were you thinking?  Take your mind out of the gutter! This isn’t Fifty Shades of Phsyio 😀 The therapist was using an oversized elastic band wrapped around the back of my knee and applying a force that the bad knee had to resist… I noticed that the band wasn't securely wrapped around her hand, all that was going through my mind was if she let go, that’s

Bereavement Counselling in the modern day NHS

After 13 months since losing Janice to such an awful disease I’m finally granted bereavement counselling courtesy of the NHS.  Its proven very difficult to access any services for bereavement when you actually need them!   Here's my story...

Hello NHS my old friend…

Over Christmas I was waiting between different tests and consultant appointments for an ongoing issue with my ankle, so in my boredom of waiting I wrote this... :)

Caffeine and Codeine

The following is my experience of the modern-day NHS. Before however I would like to acknowledge there are some really good people working within the system but are heavily constrained or scared to make the necessary changes within. As a patient, it is easy to see the NHS being systematically destroyed by poor management, and execs who are so far removed from the patient experience/journey their decision making is questionable…

Happy Wedding Anniversary Janice

Today would have been our 12th Wedding Anniversary together, every day just seems to get harder without you being here.  There is so much I want to say, stuff I […]